A bit Inspired

Yesterday and today I have been feeling a bit inspired.  The universe has surprisingly been on my side despite one set back that's turning out to be alright.  Yesterday was a roller coaster of emotions, mostly good but one bad thing that really tried to ruin my day a bit, but I was determined not to let anything get me down and to my surprise I found myself being super inspired to power on.  I'm feeling in sync with the Universe and I really haven't felt that way in sometime, so much so that I'm finding myself a bit more inspired than usual.  Like I see the light at the end of a couple tunnels and let me tell you I have so many irons in the fire right now and so many tunnels to get to the end of, I often feel overwhelmed.  So feeling a bit inspired has me all gitty inside and focused!  Here's to life and the universe being on my side right now.  To all of you that are feeling a little down pay attention to the universe sometimes it speaks to you and you aren't paying enough attention or life has you so frazzled that you miss the signs that could just possible turn that frown upside down!

Bad things always come in threes.... or more

I'm forever being like hey you know that old saying... "all bad things happen in threes." That's Bullshit! They happen however they are going to happen I feel like lately between things at work and home I've had like 6 bad things happen in a two week period.  It's so hard to stay positive when a plethora of bad things and bad luck is wrecking your life, however I'm super optimistic and will pull myself out of that funk by just focusing my energy and mind on all the good things that are in my life and how blessed I really am despite all the bad stuff that's littering my world.  We're all guilty of letting our minds dominate our emotions, after all we are only human.  Here I go again with another old saying or phrase so to speak..."mind over matter." which means the use of willpower to overcome physical problems.  I practice this religiously, I've learned that if you let your emotions get the best of you (which is bound to happen sometimes) then you cause more heartache and headaches then if you take a logical look at the situation and leave the emotions at bay.  I know it's not going to be easy but the next time you think the world is ending and all bad things are happening stop and think about all the things that went right!!

Spring has Sprung

It's the First Day of Spring!!! I am so excited for this time of year, everything starts to bloom and you can actually enjoy being outside.  I'm feeling a lot more motivated this time of year, which this year I really need to get my shit together and get with it.  I'm on a journey and it does not include being unmotivated.  Spring into something amazing today and get ready to get shit done!!  I'm also super stoked to see this amazing supermoon they are talking about during the spring equinox.  This is going to be the last supermoon we will see until 2020.  How freaking cool is that, I am obsessed with the moon! I'm off to working the bar, sure hope it doesn't get weird with the way the moon is going to be tonight!

So much to do, so Little time...

I haven't written a blog in over a month, actually its been almost two months if we want to get real about it.  I'm really trying here but turns out I am not trying hard enough.  I spent most days running around in circles feeling like I am accomplishing so many things and then realizing the amount of responsibilities that I've gotten myself into is why I don't have time to write or do anything else creative.  I am the biggest broken record, I guess I need to focus on saying no and getting my shit done, but to me that's easier said then done.  I'm sure I'm not the only person that feels this way in life, like there is so much to get done and yet so little time to do it and I know for a fact that I am not the only person that lets themselves get overwhelmed with responsibilities.  My life is pure chaos, I don't even want to start telling you about it because that just seems depressing and I am bound and determined that today is going to be awesome and that things are working out the way they are supposed too in fact I saw 11:11 today I actually saw it turn from 11:10 to 11:11 which to me is just that much cooler.  I'm a big believer in seeing consecutive numbers and it meaning something bigger than just a number on a clock or in and address or where ever else you may see repeating numbers.  To me its the universe speaking to me telling me something I need to know or understand. A reinforcement that I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing in that moment.  The universe speaks to us all the time you just have to listen.  I've got so much more peace in my life from listening to the universe and honing in on what its trying to tell me. 

The Struggle is Real

One thing that really gets me demotivated in my creative goals is my lack of creativity when I try to force it. Its like if I make a conscious decision to be creative, I've got nothing and then in the middle of doing something I can't just stop I have a creative thought or moment and then its lost, lost forever, because I can't capture it. I know I sound a bit dramatic about all of it but it really does bring me down, makes it hard to try and do creative things in my spare time, I feel like I'm forcing it and therefore its not real or raw. . . I sound like a broken record, an artist that has never starved.  I've never put my artwork or writing first, ever. Its always been low on my priority list and why I wonder? I love it, I should spend more time on it.  I promised myself this year will be the year that I make it more of a priority, this is the year I accomplish many things, why, because I am making a promise to myself and I am not going to break it.  I've been listening to Rachel Hollis's book Girl, wash your face on audible and she made me realize this. I've got to hold myself accountable for not letting myself make time for the things I love like writing and painting.  I've also got to get over the fact that people may not read my blog or the books I want to write and people may not want to buy my paintings or anything else but that doesn't mean I should stop doing what I love.  You know the saying...'The Struggle is Real" This is on of my real struggles. 😂

Creatures On A Rock

On my last post I stated that I have been trying to start a blog now for about 12 years and once I published it and was looking around I noticed that I in fact started this blog account in 2009. I would have been 20 and thus it would have only been 10 years but despite my bad memory and time judgment a lot has happened in the last ten years.  I graduated college with a degree is Mass Communications from Northwestern Oklahoma State University in Alva, OK. I got my dream job being a radio DJ, while there I also sold radio advertising, probably one of the hardest things to sell in my opinion. It's like selling air and hoping someone is there to breath it in when its released.  I also wrote my own ad copy and produced the ads something that I really enjoyed. I meet my husband, we got married and spent roughly six years helping take care of his grandmother with Dementia. I also switched from selling radio ads to car insurance which I only did for about a year before finding my place randomly off a Facebook post about a bartending job at the Elks lodge that turned into a full blown career.  I've been with the Elks now for about 2 and a half years, its been such a blessing in my life and I can't leave out that my husband and I started a leather business.  So as you can see there has been a lot of things that have transpired and I really just skimmed the top of it. I've spent ten years not making the things I love to do one of my priorities and sitting and worrying or just going through the movements, but that's what this post is really about, its about continuing on, not letting the past define who you are and what your future holds.  It may have taken me 10 years but I am committed to making this a regular thing.  I've always loved to write so it's so exciting and moving to be making it my reality and to be able to share my thoughts and my art with all of you.  I had a friend comment on my blog link I shared on my twitter yesterday after my first post, she writes "We're all just creatures on a rock, homie." and she's so right but this creature is destined to move that rock.

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Life is a funny thing

When I was a kid I wanted to grow up and now that I am grown up, I've come to appreciate my days as a carefree kid.  Life is a funny thing and it has a funny way of working out and not working out.  I continue to be super optimistic most days but some days are harder than others.  The other day I was looking at my plants and so many of them had new growth on them one even flowered and I finally found the secret to growing chickens and hens.  I can't even begin to tell you how many of those plants I have killed over the last five years, but I just kept trying and the rewarding feeling I got when I finally succeeded is something I can't even explain.  That day as I was looking at my plants and was studying them, seeing their growth made me realize that growing plants is a lot like growing in life.  I begun to compare them, plants start out as a seed and grow through the soil into baby plants and then into adult plants. We as humans grow from an egg in our mothers and then grow from a baby to an adult.  The better care we take of our plants the better they grow and bloom, just like us the better care we receive as we grow the better we grow and bloom into the people that we are.  The secret to happiness in life is the same secret to growing healthy plants.  This year I don't have any new years resolutions, just a new year to restart my growth.  There are so many things that I have wanted to do and do wholeheartedly that in the past I've started but never continued or stuck with it so to speak.  I've started this blog several times over the last 12 years and today I wipe the slate clean and start fresh, start the growth process in writing and enjoying my creative side through such endeavors as this.  I've let the life I'm living keep me from doing things that I love and enjoy and this year that is all going to change as I will be making my blog, podcast (set to start Feb. 2019, stay tuned) and my other various creative endeavors be a priority in my life.  I encourage everyone to make the things they really love a priority in their life, because life is a funny thing and we should all enjoy everything about this crazy life.

Top Photo:  A Cactus that my husband bought from Walmart of all places and this was the first year it bloomed circa 2015. Does this every summer when we set it outside. Bottom Photo: Aquarium Terrarium my husband designed making beautiful flowers happen. (Sorry couldn't find a picture of my chickens and hens, maybe this summer I can capture them growing.)